“Life is
like a river.
There is no pre-charted way;
there are no maps to be given to you.
Just be alive and alert,
and then, wherever life leads,
you go with full confidence in it.
Trust in the life force.
Allow it to lead you towards the sea.
The river is not simply going to meet the sea,
The river is not simply going to meet the sea,
it is "growing" to be the sea,
and this is possible only through rich experience,
alert experiences,
moving ... trusting.”
~ Osho ~
I’m
sure we’ve all seen that the truth is simple, but not always easy to put into
practice in our day-to-day life situations. We can be living in a comfort zone that is not life
supportive and be completely unaware of its affects. What usually has happened
is that we have learned to live with it for so long that we don’t even notice
the limitation that we have been imposing on ourselves. And, this can show up in any of these
three areas in our lives: money, food/health and relationship.
Recently,
I realized an area of this “comfort zone” in my life that I have learned to
live with since childhood. It
actually had become a survival mechanism. Growing up we struggled financially
and our family bravely “made do” with what little we had. My Mother would constantly say to us: “Money doesn’t grow on trees,” or “There is never enough to go around,”
or “We’ll just have to make do.” This survival mechanism was programmed
deeply, so deep that I didn’t realize how it had affected the way I lived my
life, today. Actually, I had
become so creative in making do I
hadn’t even noticed this survival pattern. There has always been a feeling that everything will work
out no matter what, and that was my experience. It was quite an adventure and somehow my life, and my work,
would always come together on a shoestring.
So,
where was I not living the truth in this situation? How had this pattern that I had learned to live with been so
unhealthy and not life supporting for me?
The
truth is … “there is an abundance.” All we have to do is open our eyes and
see abundance around us … the Source, God, the Heart provides everything we
need … especially those of us who live in North America. We’ve just recently experienced
thanksgiving and most of us directly realized this abundance and acknowledged
to ourselves and family, that we have so much to be thankful for.
In
being open to seeing the truth about it, I realized this conditioned pattern of
making do was coming from an
unconscious feeling of not enough, and not this truth of abundance. There was only a small opening for the Heart/Source/God to bring this abundance into my life. So, in telling myself the truth, I faced the emotions and
thoughts around this “survival mechanism” and took responsibility for this
subtle sense of separation from the Source. Then, I automatically went into a forgiveness process, which
was adapted for this situation …
- · I’m sorry for not honoring the Source of all abundance within me.
- · Please forgive me for this separation from the Heart, the Source, within me.
Right here, I paused to fully experience what was
coming up into the Light of Awareness.
And, something beautiful happened.
As I remained in Awareness, a huge whoosh
came up from a deep place within me washing everything through, while
expressing a sense of, “I Love you and
support you no matter what.”
With this pause, there was no need to say, “I Love
you,” which is the next part of this forgiveness process. The Heart of my Heart responded to my
surrender and filled me up with a comfort and assurance that has always,
already been right here within me.
What a magnificent experience of inside/out support!
Now, the “Thank You” came from the deepest gratitude
and honor for that which is within us all … in the Heart Core of our Being …
Pure Unconditional Love and Support.
In seeing
through this pattern, from the space of Love, this self-imposed limitation was
completely consumed. Jesus said, “You will know the truth and the truth will
set you free.” This
truth sets me free!! This Radiant Love that I am,
that we are, fully embraced this past conditioning and absorbed it into Itself.
Now, there is plenty of room … infinite wide open space … for true abundance to
come through and be demonstrated into my daily life situations, naturally and
easily.
I will continue to make the best with what I have … now, from a conscious perspective … from the truth of honoring, with deep gratitude, the Source of my abundant supply, within me and within us all, and utilizing this abundance wisely and appropriately.
This
has been a sensitive issue to share with you. We can live a long time with patterns that have seemed to
become so much a part of us that we haven’t noticed them. Through our living from the Heart’s
Loving Presence … from That Which is Seeing what comes and goes … even those
deep subtle patterns are finally brought up into our Awareness to be neutralized
in this Radiance of Love. In our
telling ourselves the truth about it, we are Grace-fully taken care of.
Respectfully,
honoring and trusting the Source of our Abundant Supply in us and as us ALL,
Elizabeth
P.S. Yes, there is a money tree!! Right in our own back yard - just waiting to be harvested! :0)
P.S. Yes, there is a money tree!! Right in our own back yard - just waiting to be harvested! :0)