Honoring and Trusting the Source of Our Abundant Supply

“Life is like a river.

There is no pre-charted way;

there are no maps to be given to you.

Just be alive and alert,

and then, wherever life leads,

you go with full confidence in it.

Trust in the life force.

Allow it to lead you towards the sea.
The river is not simply going to meet the sea,

it is "growing" to be the sea,

and this is possible only through rich experience,

alert experiences,

moving ... trusting.”

~  Osho  ~

I’m sure we’ve all seen that the truth is simple, but not always easy to put into practice in our day-to-day life situations.  We can be living in a comfort zone that is not life supportive and be completely unaware of its affects. What usually has happened is that we have learned to live with it for so long that we don’t even notice the limitation that we have been imposing on ourselves.  And, this can show up in any of these three areas in our lives: money, food/health and relationship.

Recently, I realized an area of this “comfort zone” in my life that I have learned to live with since childhood.  It actually had become a survival mechanism. Growing up we struggled financially and our family bravely “made do” with what little we had.  My Mother would constantly say to us:  “Money doesn’t grow on trees,” or  “There is never enough to go around,” or “We’ll just have to make do.”   This survival mechanism was programmed deeply, so deep that I didn’t realize how it had affected the way I lived my life, today.  Actually, I had become so creative in making do I hadn’t even noticed this survival pattern.  There has always been a feeling that everything will work out no matter what, and that was my experience.  It was quite an adventure and somehow my life, and my work, would always come together on a shoestring.

So, where was I not living the truth in this situation?  How had this pattern that I had learned to live with been so unhealthy and not life supporting for me?

The truth is … “there is an abundance.”  All we have to do is open our eyes and see abundance around us … the Source, God, the Heart provides everything we need … especially those of us who live in North America.  We’ve just recently experienced thanksgiving and most of us directly realized this abundance and acknowledged to ourselves and family, that we have so much to be thankful for.

In being open to seeing the truth about it, I realized this conditioned pattern of making do was coming from an unconscious feeling of not enough, and not this truth of abundance.  There was only a small opening for the Heart/Source/God to bring this abundance into my life.  So, in telling myself the truth, I faced the emotions and thoughts around this “survival mechanism” and took responsibility for this subtle sense of separation from the Source.  Then, I automatically went into a forgiveness process, which was adapted for this situation …

• ·      I’m sorry for not honoring the Source of all abundance within me.
• ·      Please forgive me for this separation from the Heart, the Source, within me.

Right here, I paused to fully experience what was coming up into the Light of Awareness.  And, something beautiful happened.  As I remained in Awareness, a huge whoosh came up from a deep place within me washing everything through, while expressing a sense of, “I Love you and support you no matter what.”

With this pause, there was no need to say, “I Love you,” which is the next part of this forgiveness process.  The Heart of my Heart responded to my surrender and filled me up with a comfort and assurance that has always, already been right here within me.  What a magnificent experience of inside/out support!

Now, the “Thank You” came from the deepest gratitude and honor for that which is within us all … in the Heart Core of our Being … Pure Unconditional Love and Support.

In seeing through this pattern, from the space of Love, this self-imposed limitation was completely consumed.  Jesus said, “You will know the truth and the truth will set you free.”   This truth sets me free!!   This Radiant Love that I am, that we are, fully embraced this past conditioning and absorbed it into Itself. Now, there is plenty of room … infinite wide open space … for true abundance to come through and be demonstrated into my daily life situations, naturally and easily.  

I will continue to make the best with what I have … now, from a conscious perspective … from the truth of honoring, with deep gratitude, the Source of my abundant supply, within me and within us all, and utilizing this abundance wisely and appropriately.

This has been a sensitive issue to share with you.  We can live a long time with patterns that have seemed to become so much a part of us that we haven’t noticed them.  Through our living from the Heart’s Loving Presence … from That Which is Seeing what comes and goes … even those deep subtle patterns are finally brought up into our Awareness to be neutralized in this Radiance of Love.  In our telling ourselves the truth about it, we are Grace-fully taken care of.

Respectfully, honoring and trusting the Source of our Abundant Supply in us and as us ALL,

Elizabeth

P.S.  Yes, there is a money tree!!  Right in our own back yard - just waiting to be harvested!  :0)